Beneath the Surface 1992 lyrics
Journey to the soul / beneath the surface
Amy Hindman ~ December 1991
On this journey letting go of control
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
Passage through the darkness to be whole
illuminating hidden shadows I disown
Whimpering voices demanding to be heard
denied for so long . . . orphaned in this world
Conditioned in survival – severed from the whole
On this journey letting go of control . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
Beyond the Illusion . . . beneath the surface so much more
embracing the duality . . .
surrendering to my soul . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
Passage through the darkness to be whole
illuminating hidden shadows I disown
Whimpering voices demanding to be heard
denied for so long . . . orphaned in this world
Conditioned in survival – severed from the whole
On this journey letting go of control . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
Beyond the Illusion . . . beneath the surface so much more
embracing the duality . . .
surrendering to my soul . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . . .
guide me, guide me so I know . . .
puget symphony *songwriting winner
Amy Hindman Summer 1980
Moonset Skagit Bay
sparklin’ golden to the Milky Way
think I’m gonna delay my stay
til the clouds disappear it away
Red houseboat circles around
rockin’ to the beat of the sound
Whidbey lights come a flickerin’ through
its windows like a haunting guru
Chorus: Soothing Puget Symphony
gently rockin’ me away to the sea
moonset sinkin’ through a clouded veil
intoxicating moonlight ale
Pairs of lovers greetin’ the sea
sharin’ in its mystery
rowboat dancin’ by the red houseboat
lovers makin’ moon a la float Chorus
Mornin’ comes rollin’ around
Rowboat lies still on the ground
Tide wanes out, ocean lullaby nil
but rockin’ with a harmony still Chorus
Moonset Skagit Bay
Moonset Skagit Bay . . . moonset, moonset Skagit Bay
Moonset Skagit Bay
sparklin’ golden to the Milky Way
think I’m gonna delay my stay
til the clouds disappear it away
Red houseboat circles around
rockin’ to the beat of the sound
Whidbey lights come a flickerin’ through
its windows like a haunting guru
Chorus: Soothing Puget Symphony
gently rockin’ me away to the sea
moonset sinkin’ through a clouded veil
intoxicating moonlight ale
Pairs of lovers greetin’ the sea
sharin’ in its mystery
rowboat dancin’ by the red houseboat
lovers makin’ moon a la float Chorus
Mornin’ comes rollin’ around
Rowboat lies still on the ground
Tide wanes out, ocean lullaby nil
but rockin’ with a harmony still Chorus
Moonset Skagit Bay
Moonset Skagit Bay . . . moonset, moonset Skagit Bay
Moonset Skagit Bay
* "Puget Symphony" placed 1st in a NW Songwriting Contest, sponsored by KISM Radio / Bellingham, WA, and Clear Lake Recording Studio, 1983
Solo
Amy hindman Summer 1980
Restless times for love & wishin’ I could sleep beside a man
that’s not like all the others not just casual intimacy
Chorus: Strangers in a strange land indeed
who are you who is me
and why can’t we come together
we’re fillin’ a void that only gets wider
acting as if we both really care
yet still I’m sittin’ here today
watchin’ the sun play on the bay
Alone at home just a pen and my thoughts
high tide singin’ strong
fire’s cracklin’ lanterns low – wish I had a beau
just someone to share with – just to be there with
to hold me when I’m low
Chorus: Strangers in a strange land indeed
who are you who is me
and why can’t we come together
we’re fillin’ a void that only gets wider
acting as if we both really care
yet still I’m sittin’ here today
watchin’ the sun play on the bay
that’s not like all the others not just casual intimacy
Chorus: Strangers in a strange land indeed
who are you who is me
and why can’t we come together
we’re fillin’ a void that only gets wider
acting as if we both really care
yet still I’m sittin’ here today
watchin’ the sun play on the bay
Alone at home just a pen and my thoughts
high tide singin’ strong
fire’s cracklin’ lanterns low – wish I had a beau
just someone to share with – just to be there with
to hold me when I’m low
Chorus: Strangers in a strange land indeed
who are you who is me
and why can’t we come together
we’re fillin’ a void that only gets wider
acting as if we both really care
yet still I’m sittin’ here today
watchin’ the sun play on the bay
bertha Wilhelmina
amy hindman july 1988
I remember when you told me “Don’t name your kids after me”
but that would leave a great big hole in the family tree
it’s really not such an atrocious name . . .
when I remember your soft gentle face
My mother is who you are . . .
and “Bertha Wilhelmina” is pearls covered with lace
Chorus: And you’re still so much a part of me Korea 1958
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
Don’t ya wish somehow
we could’ve altered that untimely fate
seems amazin’ that my heart didn’t just fill up with hate
losin’ you so long ago – it still wounds me so . . .
now I’m just lettin’ it bleed . . .
healin’ with the help of your love the wounded child in me
Chorus:
And you’re still so much a part of me
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
I never knew I looked so like you
you left me as a little girl
became a woman I wish you knew
photographs of you yesterday – I resemble today
the essence of your beauty will sparkle within me always
Chorus:
And you’re still so much a part of me
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
but that would leave a great big hole in the family tree
it’s really not such an atrocious name . . .
when I remember your soft gentle face
My mother is who you are . . .
and “Bertha Wilhelmina” is pearls covered with lace
Chorus: And you’re still so much a part of me Korea 1958
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
Don’t ya wish somehow
we could’ve altered that untimely fate
seems amazin’ that my heart didn’t just fill up with hate
losin’ you so long ago – it still wounds me so . . .
now I’m just lettin’ it bleed . . .
healin’ with the help of your love the wounded child in me
Chorus:
And you’re still so much a part of me
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
I never knew I looked so like you
you left me as a little girl
became a woman I wish you knew
photographs of you yesterday – I resemble today
the essence of your beauty will sparkle within me always
Chorus:
And you’re still so much a part of me
it’s from you I got my identity
though you weren’t there to show me how to be
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
I can feel your spirit move – movin’ through me
Prayer for my child
amy hindman July 1988
My brave little one . . . your pain is almost done . . .
soon you will be dancing in the sun . . .
the journey you are moving through
becoming the love that was given you
letting the pain overflow . . .
discovering what you didn’t know
freeing your life from the shadow
melting into the beauty of the rainbow
Chorus: You know that I can feel your pain
wounded child cryin’ in the rain
though I’ve been gone for all these years
I have always dried your tears
for I am always near – feeling all your fear
just call on me, my little one . . . I am here
My youngest little prize, “bonus baby” of five
you’ve walked through the storm with your head up high
remembering the words to our lullaby
so go ahead and let yourself cry
I’m so sorry I never said goodbye
leaving my Amy, my little child -
wondering why?
Chorus: You know that I can feel your pain
wounded child cryin’ in the rain
though I’ve been gone for all these years
I have always dried your tears
for I am always near – feeling all your fear
just call on me, my little one . . . I am here
My sweet child, I can still feel you smile
your serenade of love still touches me
soothing like a rhapsody
listen carefully for my reply
I come to you through dream and lullaby
“When at night I go to sleep – fourteen angels watch do keep” *
My brave little one, your pain is almost done
soon you will be shining like the sun
living in the light we are one
* from Humperdinck’s “Prayer from Hansel and Gretel”
soon you will be dancing in the sun . . .
the journey you are moving through
becoming the love that was given you
letting the pain overflow . . .
discovering what you didn’t know
freeing your life from the shadow
melting into the beauty of the rainbow
Chorus: You know that I can feel your pain
wounded child cryin’ in the rain
though I’ve been gone for all these years
I have always dried your tears
for I am always near – feeling all your fear
just call on me, my little one . . . I am here
My youngest little prize, “bonus baby” of five
you’ve walked through the storm with your head up high
remembering the words to our lullaby
so go ahead and let yourself cry
I’m so sorry I never said goodbye
leaving my Amy, my little child -
wondering why?
Chorus: You know that I can feel your pain
wounded child cryin’ in the rain
though I’ve been gone for all these years
I have always dried your tears
for I am always near – feeling all your fear
just call on me, my little one . . . I am here
My sweet child, I can still feel you smile
your serenade of love still touches me
soothing like a rhapsody
listen carefully for my reply
I come to you through dream and lullaby
“When at night I go to sleep – fourteen angels watch do keep” *
My brave little one, your pain is almost done
soon you will be shining like the sun
living in the light we are one
* from Humperdinck’s “Prayer from Hansel and Gretel”
Deep therapy
amy hindman march 1989
First day of spring
wish I knew what I was feeling
my mind needs clearing
Chorus: Like a closet filled with webs of darkness
ghosts fade in and out of focus
pain and fear locked somewhere in my mind
the child remembers it somehow
please trust my journey through you now
together we’ll expose the lurking shadows
and tenderly our love will light the way
Somehow I just need to sing
take the time to be listening
the wound keeps bleeding patiently
revealing unknown mystery . . .
searchin’ for the key . . . inside of me . . . .
Memories buried long ago
photographs refuse to share the story
there was no glory when you let go
left alone you took the map
and no one else could fill the gap
and all that rage I turned it in on me
and now I just want to be free
First day of spring
wish I knew what I was feeling . . .
wish I knew what I was feeling
my mind needs clearing
Chorus: Like a closet filled with webs of darkness
ghosts fade in and out of focus
pain and fear locked somewhere in my mind
the child remembers it somehow
please trust my journey through you now
together we’ll expose the lurking shadows
and tenderly our love will light the way
Somehow I just need to sing
take the time to be listening
the wound keeps bleeding patiently
revealing unknown mystery . . .
searchin’ for the key . . . inside of me . . . .
Memories buried long ago
photographs refuse to share the story
there was no glory when you let go
left alone you took the map
and no one else could fill the gap
and all that rage I turned it in on me
and now I just want to be free
First day of spring
wish I knew what I was feeling . . .
The Gift . . . for karleen
amy hindman March 1990
I wonder if you see the gift that you’ve given me
the courage to grieve
as you led me through forgotten memory
Chorus:
Guiding my hand
facing ghosts of long ago buried in this wasteland
the journey she denied . . . the tears we should’ve cried . . .
the love laid down and died . . .
withdrawn long before it was time . . .
such a crime . . .
Now here you are giving to me all that she couldn’t be
She never said goodbye
the children didn’t ask why
but when in bed alone they’d cry
prayin’ that she wouldn’t have to die
Chorus:
Guiding my hand
facing ghosts of long ago buried in this wasteland
the journey she denied . . . the tears we should’ve cried . . .
the love laid down and died . . .
withdrawn long before it was time . . .
such a crime . . .
Now here you are giving to me all that she couldn’t be
I wonder if you see the gift that you’ve given me
the power to be free by listenin’ to the wounded child in me
being my friend, knowing on you I can depend
the rage no more denied
suppressed feelings now brought into the light
creating a space open wide
where sleeping dreams no longer hide
thank God I’m alive . . .
I wonder if you see the gift that you’ve given me
the courage to grieve
as you led me through forgotten memory
Chorus:
Guiding my hand
facing ghosts of long ago buried in this wasteland
the journey she denied . . . the tears we should’ve cried . . .
the love laid down and died . . .
withdrawn long before it was time . . .
such a crime . . .
Now here you are giving to me all that she couldn’t be
She never said goodbye
the children didn’t ask why
but when in bed alone they’d cry
prayin’ that she wouldn’t have to die
Chorus:
Guiding my hand
facing ghosts of long ago buried in this wasteland
the journey she denied . . . the tears we should’ve cried . . .
the love laid down and died . . .
withdrawn long before it was time . . .
such a crime . . .
Now here you are giving to me all that she couldn’t be
I wonder if you see the gift that you’ve given me
the power to be free by listenin’ to the wounded child in me
being my friend, knowing on you I can depend
the rage no more denied
suppressed feelings now brought into the light
creating a space open wide
where sleeping dreams no longer hide
thank God I’m alive . . .
I wonder if you see the gift that you’ve given me
Wendysong
amy hindman July 1988
Gentle friend, I’ll be with you til the end – and then . . .
if you get there before I do
try to remember what we’ve been through
please touch me now and then with tender loving care
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . . .
Chorus: I know when loved ones die . . . no one ever leaves
but our bodies are a treasure we receive
and the language of love through your body flow
lifts me when I’m feelin’ low
your loving touch releases me to flow
You’ve seen my pain, and I’ve seen plenty of yours
we’ve shed our tears as loved ones come and go
we’ve cried and laughed and sighed
at times we wanted to die
sometimes we with eagles soared . . .
and other times wondered why we signed up for the course
Chorus: I know when loved ones die . . . no one ever leaves
but our bodies are a treasure we receive
and the language of love through your body flow
lifts me when I’m feelin’ low
your loving touch releases me to flow
Gentle friend I’ll be with you til the end – and then . . .
if you get there before I do
try to remember what we’ve been through
please touch me now and then with tender loving care
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . . .
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . .
if you get there before I do
try to remember what we’ve been through
please touch me now and then with tender loving care
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . . .
Chorus: I know when loved ones die . . . no one ever leaves
but our bodies are a treasure we receive
and the language of love through your body flow
lifts me when I’m feelin’ low
your loving touch releases me to flow
You’ve seen my pain, and I’ve seen plenty of yours
we’ve shed our tears as loved ones come and go
we’ve cried and laughed and sighed
at times we wanted to die
sometimes we with eagles soared . . .
and other times wondered why we signed up for the course
Chorus: I know when loved ones die . . . no one ever leaves
but our bodies are a treasure we receive
and the language of love through your body flow
lifts me when I’m feelin’ low
your loving touch releases me to flow
Gentle friend I’ll be with you til the end – and then . . .
if you get there before I do
try to remember what we’ve been through
please touch me now and then with tender loving care
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . . .
for I’d miss the warmth of your body from way out there . .
Shakti Moondance
amy hindman September 1991
And now I know it’s time to let go . . .
the dying moon mirrors the dance my body knows . . .
the shedding of the old reflects the pain within my soul
healing passage through the dark will lead me home . . .
healing passage through the dark to be reborn . . .
and the mystery cycle begins anew . . .
Chorus: New moon . . . the light will return real soon . . .
New moon . . . sometimes inspires a tune . . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune . . .
Guru moon . . . please guide me to my shadow
through the darkness where the Goddess lies in slumber deep . . .
awaken her dormant power in me . . .
Chorus: New moon . . . the light will return real soon . . .
New moon . . . sometimes inspires a tune . . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune
magic moon . . .
magic moon . . .
the dying moon mirrors the dance my body knows . . .
the shedding of the old reflects the pain within my soul
healing passage through the dark will lead me home . . .
healing passage through the dark to be reborn . . .
and the mystery cycle begins anew . . .
Chorus: New moon . . . the light will return real soon . . .
New moon . . . sometimes inspires a tune . . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune . . .
Guru moon . . . please guide me to my shadow
through the darkness where the Goddess lies in slumber deep . . .
awaken her dormant power in me . . .
Chorus: New moon . . . the light will return real soon . . .
New moon . . . sometimes inspires a tune . . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune . .
Magic moon . . . mysterious rune
magic moon . . .
magic moon . . .
mystery
amy hindman October 1992
Healing waters . . . healing waters of the earth
Cleansing waters . . . cleansing waters of the earth
Stones of mystery here long ago before me . . .
earth history . . . speaks to me . . .
Sacred pool envelop me . . . womb of the earth replenishing
let it be . . .
Welcome the mystery . . .
wisdom of the Mother Earth guiding me . . .
gathering strength . . . emerging free . . .
Sing of earth’s melody joining in life’s harmony
Breitenbush River symphony . . .
healing me . . .
healing me . . .
Cleansing waters . . . cleansing waters of the earth
Stones of mystery here long ago before me . . .
earth history . . . speaks to me . . .
Sacred pool envelop me . . . womb of the earth replenishing
let it be . . .
Welcome the mystery . . .
wisdom of the Mother Earth guiding me . . .
gathering strength . . . emerging free . . .
Sing of earth’s melody joining in life’s harmony
Breitenbush River symphony . . .
healing me . . .
healing me . . .